16 Years of Sin

So tomorrow is my birthday.
That kinda freaks me out.
Everytime I turn a year I always look back at what my life was like exactly a year ago.

So let's see..

I was together with Tim.
I just started to take the Zoloft.
I had the school crisis.
I wanted to change school.
I .. wasn't happy.

So, not too hard to improve that, eh?

Well. Before I enter a life as a seventeenyearold I feel like cleasing my body.

Sorry for being a slacker. Always pushing it to the limit.. "I'll do that another day... I'll get that later..." As you know, I have been improving that... But geeze, I have a long way to go.

Sorry for being so confused. I've hurt some people being so confused, not knowing what I've been feeling. Not knowing who to trust. Not knowing if I'm doing the right thing, but still follow my shallow gut feeling.

Sorry for being someone else. I just don't feel like I'm enough sometimes. It sure can be hard always cheering everyone up... Being the joker... But that's the mask I have. That is the roll I play. I'm sorry not living after my favorite motto: Be yourself.

Sorry for having double-morale. Not living what you preach. Giving others the truth they want. It's just hard, you know what is right but your body wants to go against it.

Sorry for being 16.